Some of you know that I've been on this journey of discovering self-love. My life has been changing dramatically but I've hit some bumps in the road lately. It's been so easy to get discouraged and it seems when I look for someones shoulder to cry on, no one is there. I guess all I wanted was encouragement and someone to tell me it's going to be ok. Someone to say I'm doing a good job and to keep going. Someone to tell me anything. I kept looking and searching for anyone that would hear me. Of course Kandi Loo (my cat) is always ready to jump on my lap and listen to me for hours but I wanted more. I don't know why I was searching for all of these things from someone else. Everything I needed to hear and all the encouragement I need really is within me.
The reason I share my experiences with all of you because I know what it feels like to think that no one in the world understands what you're going through. I think maybe someone, somewhere might be encouraged after reading my story and that's the reason why I want to inspire people. I want encourage all of you to pat someone on the back, give a compliment, be a shoulder for someone to cry on, and take a few minutes to listen to someone. I know when I practice all of these actions it enriches my life. I wrote myself a love letter of encouragement below. I got this idea from a book I read and WOW it felt so good reading it back to myself. It really does encourage me! Too many times we look for comfort or encouragement from other people to make us feel better when all we gotta do is look in the mirror. If you really want to empower yourself then look within you. When you truly love yourself you shine like a bright light which attracts others to open themselves up and want to do the same.
Dear Diana,
First off, I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate and love you. Even though things have been a little rough on you lately, you still have not given up on me. Back in the day you would of given up at any sign of failure. The important thing to remember is when you're taking steps to improve yourself, it's natural to run into set-backs and failures. But don't get stuck in the doom and gloom of a minor step back, because sometimes that's what it takes to move forward. Yes, people will disappoint you and some people will walk out of your life but just always know that I'm always here for you and will stick by your side. You are very brave and strong to make that commitment to improve your life for the better. So wipe up those tears girl and keep reaching for the top because It can only get better from here. You have come a long way and too far to quit. Keep pushing!
Love you always,
Diana
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Setting myself free
What if I told you that you have the power to set yourself free. Free from worries, free from stress, free from self judgement, free from doubt, free from fear, free from anger and so much more? The chance to feel free as a bird doesn't come from a fast sports car, bungee jumping or winning the lotto. You are the only one who holds the key to set yourself free. Inside you hold the key to unlock that chain that has been holding you hostage all these years. Now imagine when you were a child you had a huge passion for dolphins. You draw them all over your notebook, you read about them and even dream to work with them one day. But your parents want you to become a Doctor. Everyone in the family has been successful at that so that is the right thing to do. Plus your friends laugh at your fascination for dolphins. What happens.....your dream is gone. You judge yourself as not good enough if you don't become a doctor! Anger, doubt, fear and self judgement come into our life slowly tying a chain around us and we hold our own self hostage and place a lock on ourselves. We have the key in our hand, in front of our face, but we chose to remain locked up in these chains of self limitations.
So now all these voices in our head fill up our mind with lies such as ...I'm not a doctor so I'm not successful. I'm not a certain size so I'm not beautiful. I'm mixed with different races so I'll be judged a certain way. I've been through all of this and now I'm free! I came to a point in my life where I tried to change the people around me to change my life. But I failed time after time. With awareness I started to change my frame of mind, my thoughts and slowly but surely my life started to change. I stopped believing the lies my mind was telling me that kept me away from my dreams. We get so caught up in these lies that we start to believe them and it's all we know. The good news is that it's not too late to change all of this. You want to feel free then get the key and unlock those chains. Don Miguel Ruiz states in his book The Voice of Knowledge that "The voice in your head is like a wild horse taking you wherever it wants to go. Once you tame the horse, you can ride the horse, and knowledge becomes a tool for communication that take you where you want to go."
I believe every moment in life you can never get back and you better choose how you spend your minutes wisely. So I chose to spend these minutes writing this so that you can feel the same freedom I do. I always told myself I wanted to come back in the next life as a bird. They are so beautiful, they sing after the biggest storm and fly in the sky with such grace. But little did I know I am a bird! Soaring through the sky, care free and even though dark moments entered my life, I got through it. That didn't stop me from singing off the top of my lungs. I now know that I have to power to chose what I want to create in life . I am the co-creator of my life!
So now all these voices in our head fill up our mind with lies such as ...I'm not a doctor so I'm not successful. I'm not a certain size so I'm not beautiful. I'm mixed with different races so I'll be judged a certain way. I've been through all of this and now I'm free! I came to a point in my life where I tried to change the people around me to change my life. But I failed time after time. With awareness I started to change my frame of mind, my thoughts and slowly but surely my life started to change. I stopped believing the lies my mind was telling me that kept me away from my dreams. We get so caught up in these lies that we start to believe them and it's all we know. The good news is that it's not too late to change all of this. You want to feel free then get the key and unlock those chains. Don Miguel Ruiz states in his book The Voice of Knowledge that "The voice in your head is like a wild horse taking you wherever it wants to go. Once you tame the horse, you can ride the horse, and knowledge becomes a tool for communication that take you where you want to go."
I believe every moment in life you can never get back and you better choose how you spend your minutes wisely. So I chose to spend these minutes writing this so that you can feel the same freedom I do. I always told myself I wanted to come back in the next life as a bird. They are so beautiful, they sing after the biggest storm and fly in the sky with such grace. But little did I know I am a bird! Soaring through the sky, care free and even though dark moments entered my life, I got through it. That didn't stop me from singing off the top of my lungs. I now know that I have to power to chose what I want to create in life . I am the co-creator of my life!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Forgive and Let It Go
There have been a couple of events this week that would usually steal my joy away but it didn't get to me. At first I was like, "Hmm, do I not care about these things that bothered me before?"
This is touchy because it deals with family. All this drama from the past, and I mean like 40 years ago, is affecting a family member of mine. Not to put them on the spot, but I'm sadden to see how this one person can be so angry at other individuals for all these years. It's insane! Year after year I hear the same story, "I don't like them because they did this to me and they did that to me." Makes you want to say, get over it! Right?
Years ago I would have agreed with this one family member. I would have said, "You are right, how could they have done that...you should never speak to them again."
Now the beauty of the past is it's just that, THE PAST, let it go! Whatever anyone has done to you in the past was nothing personal to you. It has nothing to do with you. They were what I call an "unaware" person that decided to do or say these things that has nothing to do with you! I know there are many things that happen that are not fair. Rape, being bullied, being used, being abused...it's all not fair! I get it. I have been through all of these things and many more "unfair" situations. But, the moment I became aware that all of these things that people did to me had nothing to do with me, I forgave myself and I learn to let go.
Forgiving yourself can be one of the most important things you do in your life. And after reading The Mastery of Love by Don Miguel Ruiz (yes I'm a huge fan!) he states, "Forgiveness is an act of self-love." And I preach a lot on self-love because everything starts within you. You can not and I repeat, can not change anything in your life unless you start with you.
So if you've been out there getting into romantic relationships back to back, getting new hair-do's, changing the way you dress, calling your "booty calls" or worse calling the girls/guys you have to pay to satisfy that need, moving to the other side of the country looking for change and you still feel like there is something missing. Guess what? There is! YOU! You are missing. Until you learn that everything starts with you then you will go through life confused and unhappy. Until you learn to love you, you will always be lacking. When you forgive yourself for what happened in the past and forgive the people who have hurt you and did you wrong, will you then learn to let it go!
Now, I don't let things go easily. Guilty! I still have a jewelry box filled with movie stubs, rings, little nothings from the first guy I ever dated and had feelings for. Shoot I still have the rose petals a ex gave me in a vase displayed in my room. Did I display these things right after we broke up? HELLLL NO! Thank God it was out of my reach because I would of had a bonfire going! ha ha!
I can tell you one thing though, I forgave him and most importantly I forgave myself for whatever reason we didn't work out. Now I display the vase because of what it represents. It represents love to me. Now, if every time I look at the vase and would cry or want to throw it out the window and watch it shatter into little pieces then, that means I have not forgiven him or myself for the reason we broke up. And you know what's great? People ask me all the time "How come you guys didn't work out?". I tell them I don't remember (I really don't) and I don't care.
That is what happened then, we are living in the now and don't have too much control on what happens in the future. That being said why should I care about a silly break-up? Why should I care that someone bullied me and made me feel like the smallest person in the world? Why should I care someone who didn't know me try to harm me? Why should I care because of the bitterness one person had I was to blame? Have these events effected my life? Absolutely!
I was the victim and hated myself for all of these things. The world was against me and everyone should feel sorry for me. Until I became aware! Until I forgave each and every single person who hurt me and forgave myself. You may ask "how did you forgive the guy who raped you?". This is a really touchy subject and question but almost every girl or guy you come across that has been raped blame themselves. I blamed me the entire time! I forgave myself and I let it go. "But Diana how could you forgive your family and friends who abused you and did you wrong?" Easy, what they did to me had NOTHING to do with me. It was their own garbage (as Don Miguel Ruiz puts it) they were dealing with and it had nothing to do with me.
Forgiving myself has been made the most profound impact in my life. I do it daily. Practice makes perfect right? So I know I tend to talk about one thing then go into another thing but the bottom line is if you ever want to look at your ex-wife and not feel anger, if you ever want to think about your high school bully and not want to punch a wall, if you ever want to see a scar from a mistake that you made and not beat yourself up over and over again with guilt and shame, and if you ever want to experience true happiness within, you need to forgive yourself first off and forgive everyone else. Break those chains around your heart and learn to love, let go and be free. We were put on this earth to be happy. We deserve it and we are given the choice to be happy. Be happy! Let it go :)
P.S- I know not all of you agree with me and that's fine I love you anyway but if you want to know where I get these eye openers. I encourage you to read anything by Don Miguel Ruiz. If you're like me and you been through some things but want to turn your life around from the hell you been living in into heaven, just free yourself. Then, I highly encourage you to one, FORGIVE, when you do that you LET IT GO. Two, listen to that inner voice that's telling you to make a change in your life and three, pick up a book!
This is touchy because it deals with family. All this drama from the past, and I mean like 40 years ago, is affecting a family member of mine. Not to put them on the spot, but I'm sadden to see how this one person can be so angry at other individuals for all these years. It's insane! Year after year I hear the same story, "I don't like them because they did this to me and they did that to me." Makes you want to say, get over it! Right?
Years ago I would have agreed with this one family member. I would have said, "You are right, how could they have done that...you should never speak to them again."
Now the beauty of the past is it's just that, THE PAST, let it go! Whatever anyone has done to you in the past was nothing personal to you. It has nothing to do with you. They were what I call an "unaware" person that decided to do or say these things that has nothing to do with you! I know there are many things that happen that are not fair. Rape, being bullied, being used, being abused...it's all not fair! I get it. I have been through all of these things and many more "unfair" situations. But, the moment I became aware that all of these things that people did to me had nothing to do with me, I forgave myself and I learn to let go.
Forgiving yourself can be one of the most important things you do in your life. And after reading The Mastery of Love by Don Miguel Ruiz (yes I'm a huge fan!) he states, "Forgiveness is an act of self-love." And I preach a lot on self-love because everything starts within you. You can not and I repeat, can not change anything in your life unless you start with you.
So if you've been out there getting into romantic relationships back to back, getting new hair-do's, changing the way you dress, calling your "booty calls" or worse calling the girls/guys you have to pay to satisfy that need, moving to the other side of the country looking for change and you still feel like there is something missing. Guess what? There is! YOU! You are missing. Until you learn that everything starts with you then you will go through life confused and unhappy. Until you learn to love you, you will always be lacking. When you forgive yourself for what happened in the past and forgive the people who have hurt you and did you wrong, will you then learn to let it go!
Now, I don't let things go easily. Guilty! I still have a jewelry box filled with movie stubs, rings, little nothings from the first guy I ever dated and had feelings for. Shoot I still have the rose petals a ex gave me in a vase displayed in my room. Did I display these things right after we broke up? HELLLL NO! Thank God it was out of my reach because I would of had a bonfire going! ha ha!
I can tell you one thing though, I forgave him and most importantly I forgave myself for whatever reason we didn't work out. Now I display the vase because of what it represents. It represents love to me. Now, if every time I look at the vase and would cry or want to throw it out the window and watch it shatter into little pieces then, that means I have not forgiven him or myself for the reason we broke up. And you know what's great? People ask me all the time "How come you guys didn't work out?". I tell them I don't remember (I really don't) and I don't care.
That is what happened then, we are living in the now and don't have too much control on what happens in the future. That being said why should I care about a silly break-up? Why should I care that someone bullied me and made me feel like the smallest person in the world? Why should I care someone who didn't know me try to harm me? Why should I care because of the bitterness one person had I was to blame? Have these events effected my life? Absolutely!
I was the victim and hated myself for all of these things. The world was against me and everyone should feel sorry for me. Until I became aware! Until I forgave each and every single person who hurt me and forgave myself. You may ask "how did you forgive the guy who raped you?". This is a really touchy subject and question but almost every girl or guy you come across that has been raped blame themselves. I blamed me the entire time! I forgave myself and I let it go. "But Diana how could you forgive your family and friends who abused you and did you wrong?" Easy, what they did to me had NOTHING to do with me. It was their own garbage (as Don Miguel Ruiz puts it) they were dealing with and it had nothing to do with me.
Forgiving myself has been made the most profound impact in my life. I do it daily. Practice makes perfect right? So I know I tend to talk about one thing then go into another thing but the bottom line is if you ever want to look at your ex-wife and not feel anger, if you ever want to think about your high school bully and not want to punch a wall, if you ever want to see a scar from a mistake that you made and not beat yourself up over and over again with guilt and shame, and if you ever want to experience true happiness within, you need to forgive yourself first off and forgive everyone else. Break those chains around your heart and learn to love, let go and be free. We were put on this earth to be happy. We deserve it and we are given the choice to be happy. Be happy! Let it go :)
P.S- I know not all of you agree with me and that's fine I love you anyway but if you want to know where I get these eye openers. I encourage you to read anything by Don Miguel Ruiz. If you're like me and you been through some things but want to turn your life around from the hell you been living in into heaven, just free yourself. Then, I highly encourage you to one, FORGIVE, when you do that you LET IT GO. Two, listen to that inner voice that's telling you to make a change in your life and three, pick up a book!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Why are you always smiling and laughing?
Over the past few months a lot of friends, strangers, people I see everyday have been telling me the same thing. "You are always in a good mood", "You are always smiling", "Why are you always so happy". I respond with "Why not!". I'm in a good mood because there is nothing to be in a bad mood about. I'm always smiling because my soul is filled with joy. I'm happy everyday because I am so appreciative for the people and opportunities in my life. I seriously find so many reasons to smile and be happy down to seeing strangers help each other to the weather being so beautiful.
Want to know a secret about me? I used to be ashamed to say this but last year and even years before that I was not the happy, cheerful, positive person I am today. As a matter of fact I attempted to end my life several times. Obviously my work here on earth is not done! I used to be so depressed to the point where I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. I did not want to hurt anymore and I didn't get the point of living. Why?? We are just gonna die anyway...what's the point? The disappointment I felt waking up in a hospital was shameful. Now if that is not a twisted way of thinking I don't know what is! Imagine living life like that? It seemed as if my world was dark and fuzzy. I drowned myself in alcohol almost every night, dragged through my 9-5 anxiously awaiting to "punch out" to grab another drink to relieve my hangover..ha! Had no real friends or meaningful relationships. And if I did these people where on the same boat with me to sail the sea of misery.
Year after year it was the same old song and dance. I was so predictable to my family....."I would ask how you're doing Diana but I bet you are hungover, crying over your miserable life or wondering how you were going to eat the next day". That's the image people saw of me. Why, why, why is this happening to me I would think. My mom should of never did that, my boyfriend should of never left me, I'm just not worthy....wah wah wah...a one person pity party. Then my most recent challenge, anxiety with panic attacks. Doctor "Here are some pills have a nice day" said I was looney. Maybe I was (maybe I still am! :)~ )! After all my reasoning for being this way was because of how I was raised right? Poor childhood, no guidance, no love, broken and abusive relationships all around....well the list goes on. So it wasn't the best time of my life growing up. Do I blame that?
What's awesome folks is the moment I discovered SELF LOVE, I learned to stop blaming myself for all the bad things that happen to me. To be honest since I forgave myself I don't even remember all the bad moments in my life. And the kick to all of this is because of those moments I am who I am today! People dictated my life. I'll never amount to anything because I grew up in a broken home, specialist said that once I was hit with depression I'll always have it, My boss said I'm only worth $15 an hour and on and on with all the negative and poisonous words that would keep feeding that wound of shame, guilt, sorrow, pain. YUCK! All those negative words stripped away of the person I really was. My true self. All the dreams I had growing up was slowing turning into a nightmare. However, I discovered SELF LOVE. I can't stress enough how important this is!
Let me take you down a mini timeline of what happen with I started to love, respect and enjoy being me. Many if not all of you know my first sentence as a baby was "mommy he's so cute and furry, can I take him home"....ha ha! Ok maybe I added a word or two but animals have always been my passion and I knew I wanted to work with them somehow, some way I just didn't know where to start. "No Diana, that takes years of school and you're not good enough", "You should be this or that". Today I'm the proud owner of Heart 2 Heart Pet Care! So, to those who told me not to quit my job and I'm being silly with my thoughts of starting my business.....well....how do you like me now!? I used to be overweight. And I'm sure those Carne Asada fries after a long night of drinking contributed to that. Today from a size 13 (not that 13 is big but for my body frame it is) to a size 2! I started to eat healthy, exercise and really take care of my body. Those late night at the bars are now late nights brain storming on projects I'm working on to make my life more successful. My eyes aren't locked up with tears but locked up in a great book I'm reading to learn and better myself. All those negative gloom and doom thoughts are now positive thoughts with the direction to move forward. I'm happy! I never thought I would say those two words because I was in a constant search for it. And I thought happiness was in drink, in a man, in a obsession I created.
Was it easy? NO! Was it worth it? Ohhhhhhh YEAH! I'm happy because I love me, and the fact that I love me I can now love! I can love you, love my pets, love people and LOVE LIFE!
Want to know a secret about me? I used to be ashamed to say this but last year and even years before that I was not the happy, cheerful, positive person I am today. As a matter of fact I attempted to end my life several times. Obviously my work here on earth is not done! I used to be so depressed to the point where I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. I did not want to hurt anymore and I didn't get the point of living. Why?? We are just gonna die anyway...what's the point? The disappointment I felt waking up in a hospital was shameful. Now if that is not a twisted way of thinking I don't know what is! Imagine living life like that? It seemed as if my world was dark and fuzzy. I drowned myself in alcohol almost every night, dragged through my 9-5 anxiously awaiting to "punch out" to grab another drink to relieve my hangover..ha! Had no real friends or meaningful relationships. And if I did these people where on the same boat with me to sail the sea of misery.
Year after year it was the same old song and dance. I was so predictable to my family....."I would ask how you're doing Diana but I bet you are hungover, crying over your miserable life or wondering how you were going to eat the next day". That's the image people saw of me. Why, why, why is this happening to me I would think. My mom should of never did that, my boyfriend should of never left me, I'm just not worthy....wah wah wah...a one person pity party. Then my most recent challenge, anxiety with panic attacks. Doctor "Here are some pills have a nice day" said I was looney. Maybe I was (maybe I still am! :)~ )! After all my reasoning for being this way was because of how I was raised right? Poor childhood, no guidance, no love, broken and abusive relationships all around....well the list goes on. So it wasn't the best time of my life growing up. Do I blame that?
What's awesome folks is the moment I discovered SELF LOVE, I learned to stop blaming myself for all the bad things that happen to me. To be honest since I forgave myself I don't even remember all the bad moments in my life. And the kick to all of this is because of those moments I am who I am today! People dictated my life. I'll never amount to anything because I grew up in a broken home, specialist said that once I was hit with depression I'll always have it, My boss said I'm only worth $15 an hour and on and on with all the negative and poisonous words that would keep feeding that wound of shame, guilt, sorrow, pain. YUCK! All those negative words stripped away of the person I really was. My true self. All the dreams I had growing up was slowing turning into a nightmare. However, I discovered SELF LOVE. I can't stress enough how important this is!
Let me take you down a mini timeline of what happen with I started to love, respect and enjoy being me. Many if not all of you know my first sentence as a baby was "mommy he's so cute and furry, can I take him home"....ha ha! Ok maybe I added a word or two but animals have always been my passion and I knew I wanted to work with them somehow, some way I just didn't know where to start. "No Diana, that takes years of school and you're not good enough", "You should be this or that". Today I'm the proud owner of Heart 2 Heart Pet Care! So, to those who told me not to quit my job and I'm being silly with my thoughts of starting my business.....well....how do you like me now!? I used to be overweight. And I'm sure those Carne Asada fries after a long night of drinking contributed to that. Today from a size 13 (not that 13 is big but for my body frame it is) to a size 2! I started to eat healthy, exercise and really take care of my body. Those late night at the bars are now late nights brain storming on projects I'm working on to make my life more successful. My eyes aren't locked up with tears but locked up in a great book I'm reading to learn and better myself. All those negative gloom and doom thoughts are now positive thoughts with the direction to move forward. I'm happy! I never thought I would say those two words because I was in a constant search for it. And I thought happiness was in drink, in a man, in a obsession I created.
Was it easy? NO! Was it worth it? Ohhhhhhh YEAH! I'm happy because I love me, and the fact that I love me I can now love! I can love you, love my pets, love people and LOVE LIFE!
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Letter of Success
[undisclosed name], I started to write a note to you then my heart took over...read below ;)
I'm still tapping, and using my anchor. My anchor has been such a life saver to me and probably one of the reasons I don't take meds anymore. When I feel a anxiety attack coming on I go to my anchor. Thanks for teaching me how to use that! What a gift! I don't need to be dependent on medicine anymore to sleep or for panic attacks (I don't even know where the pill bottle is). The medicince was like a addiction. I was so fearful to leave the house without it, popped a pill when I knew I had to do something new or be around people and knew I couldn't sleep without it. With this awareness I set my mind to where I know I'm bigger than the panic attack and I can sleep peacefully and wake up well rested each day. My emotions are well balanced compared to the last time I saw you. I was so hurt....so broken hearted. I thought it was a life long journey of hurt and pain I had to live with in order to get over a loss. In all reality....I never lost anything or anyone! Instead I gained experience and knowledge to help me stand up stronger to be the powerful person I know I am. I decided to make myself the center of my universe. The only way for me to plant a seed here on earth to impact others starts within me. I learned to love myself! I already have people telling me all the time that my story or something I said has inspired them. Now that's what I'm talking about!
I'm still working on my financial goals. It's a lot easier to even set goals now that my life is filled with joy. My business is doing extremely well and continues to grow each day. I'm taking my passion and living life with my desire to help animals and people. I remember sitting behind a computer hating my job, day dreaming about doing what I'm doing now. And the best part is this is only the beginning! It only gets better from here and I'm so excited for all the greats things that are to come.
Heart to heart hugs,
Diana
----- Forwarded Message ----
From: Diana Issa
To: undisclosed email
Sent: Thu, April 1, 2010 11:07:22 PM
Subject: Saying hello...
(Prior email to a friend)
I was writing a note to [undisclosed name] to say hello but then my heart took over as I got excited of this huge accomplishment....This will be my next blog post because my heart flowed like a river tonight.....
Hi [undisclosed name],
I just wanted to say hello and let you know I'm doing really well. I'm sure [undisclosed name] had a chance to tell you that I've been doing great emotionally and with my business. I know my doctor and everyone said to stay on the pills because of all the change that's happening in my life but I came to the point where enough is enough with depending on meds or even people to change my mood or control what's going on in MY life. I'm taking control...it's my life and I choose to be happy and successful! As far as my recent "loss"....well I decided to not concentrate on the pain and the hurt of a broken relationship but rather the LOVE that was created. I had to let go emotionally in order to set him and MYSELF free. What's awesome is that I still have my best friend! And what happen in the past between us is just that...the past! I feel free as a bird and I know that I can support and be there for my best friend 100 % ! (no sneaky motives to get him back or games to play....just love him genuinely...how love should be) A lot of my blocks came from insecurity, beating myself up and lack of love for myself. Those days are long gone. And WOW what a huge accomplishment this has been for me. This just goes to show that anything you put you mind to, anything you want to change, anything you believe in CAN come to pass if you just BELIEVE and take that first step of action, that first step of faith. It's scary....boy do I know this....but you have to want it bad enough to get the ending result you crave. How amazing is that? A ending result could be a new home, quit drugs, a new career, a car, pair of shoes, winning a drawing, good parking spot, weight loss, new career, ANYTHING! Passion and desire with a great mix of FAITH could take you anywhere you want to go in life. And the best part about it is.....we have the power and the key to achieve all of this. It's within us! If we can look within our hearts, envision our desires, take that leap of faith (step of action), then everything we have manifested will come into our life because the universe provides infinite abundance.
Living pasionately everyday,
Diana
I'm still tapping, and using my anchor. My anchor has been such a life saver to me and probably one of the reasons I don't take meds anymore. When I feel a anxiety attack coming on I go to my anchor. Thanks for teaching me how to use that! What a gift! I don't need to be dependent on medicine anymore to sleep or for panic attacks (I don't even know where the pill bottle is). The medicince was like a addiction. I was so fearful to leave the house without it, popped a pill when I knew I had to do something new or be around people and knew I couldn't sleep without it. With this awareness I set my mind to where I know I'm bigger than the panic attack and I can sleep peacefully and wake up well rested each day. My emotions are well balanced compared to the last time I saw you. I was so hurt....so broken hearted. I thought it was a life long journey of hurt and pain I had to live with in order to get over a loss. In all reality....I never lost anything or anyone! Instead I gained experience and knowledge to help me stand up stronger to be the powerful person I know I am. I decided to make myself the center of my universe. The only way for me to plant a seed here on earth to impact others starts within me. I learned to love myself! I already have people telling me all the time that my story or something I said has inspired them. Now that's what I'm talking about!
I'm still working on my financial goals. It's a lot easier to even set goals now that my life is filled with joy. My business is doing extremely well and continues to grow each day. I'm taking my passion and living life with my desire to help animals and people. I remember sitting behind a computer hating my job, day dreaming about doing what I'm doing now. And the best part is this is only the beginning! It only gets better from here and I'm so excited for all the greats things that are to come.
Heart to heart hugs,
Diana
----- Forwarded Message ----
From: Diana Issa
To: undisclosed email
Sent: Thu, April 1, 2010 11:07:22 PM
Subject: Saying hello...
(Prior email to a friend)
I was writing a note to [undisclosed name] to say hello but then my heart took over as I got excited of this huge accomplishment....This will be my next blog post because my heart flowed like a river tonight.....
Hi [undisclosed name],
I just wanted to say hello and let you know I'm doing really well. I'm sure [undisclosed name] had a chance to tell you that I've been doing great emotionally and with my business. I know my doctor and everyone said to stay on the pills because of all the change that's happening in my life but I came to the point where enough is enough with depending on meds or even people to change my mood or control what's going on in MY life. I'm taking control...it's my life and I choose to be happy and successful! As far as my recent "loss"....well I decided to not concentrate on the pain and the hurt of a broken relationship but rather the LOVE that was created. I had to let go emotionally in order to set him and MYSELF free. What's awesome is that I still have my best friend! And what happen in the past between us is just that...the past! I feel free as a bird and I know that I can support and be there for my best friend 100 % ! (no sneaky motives to get him back or games to play....just love him genuinely...how love should be) A lot of my blocks came from insecurity, beating myself up and lack of love for myself. Those days are long gone. And WOW what a huge accomplishment this has been for me. This just goes to show that anything you put you mind to, anything you want to change, anything you believe in CAN come to pass if you just BELIEVE and take that first step of action, that first step of faith. It's scary....boy do I know this....but you have to want it bad enough to get the ending result you crave. How amazing is that? A ending result could be a new home, quit drugs, a new career, a car, pair of shoes, winning a drawing, good parking spot, weight loss, new career, ANYTHING! Passion and desire with a great mix of FAITH could take you anywhere you want to go in life. And the best part about it is.....we have the power and the key to achieve all of this. It's within us! If we can look within our hearts, envision our desires, take that leap of faith (step of action), then everything we have manifested will come into our life because the universe provides infinite abundance.
Living pasionately everyday,
Diana
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
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